Opening Up

I have been told by someone that I hold things back when I am with him. I have thought about it and realized that he is right. It's time for me to open up starting now. This blog post is going to tell you a few things you need to know about me.

I love to read. I like it because it is a way to get my mind off of my life, and I can focus on a fantastic story about people who may or may not be worse off than I am.

I hate the sound of people eating... It is a pet peeve for me--people slurping, chomping, chewing loud--yeah it gives me cold chills and I find it very annoying.

I don't hunt, but not because I wouldn't ever do it and think it is cruel... I just don't. In fact I think it would be fun, and am planning on taking hunter's safety once I have some time open up.

I kind of regret doing drill team in high school. It just gave me drama for my whole high school career. I almost wish that I didn't do it and that I tried out for volleyball and other sports instead. That being said I love dance and I miss it a lot. Whenever I think about what it would have been like if I didn't dance through out HS, I think about how I wouldn't be the same person today and I am glad I did do it. I guess it's a bitter sweet kinda thing.

I'm not completely against video games, I just don't play them. I actually like watching people play them. I think it's fun when the person you are watching is actually good. It's just whenever I play I usually play with people who are good and feel bad that I make it so they cant pass the level, or I feel dumb when I was killed 100 times and only shot at one person and didn't even hit them.

The most rebellious thing I have ever done was skipped school and drove to Manti to hang out with friends there. I stayed there till 10:30 when my mom called me wanting me to come home right then (she thought I was in the Delta area at the time) I told her I was watching a movie and was going to finish it and I literally sped home.
I have never tasted alcohol--and never have had the desire to. The only time I touch cigarettes is when I am selling them to people at the gas station or the grocery store I work at.  I swear sometimes and I should work on that. I have never done the naughty and I don't plan to until I am married. There are things that I have done that I regret, but who hasnt' done something stupid?

I don't have a favorite movie. There are way too many movies that I like to just pick one. If you try to make me pick one, I probably wont unless you tell me what category to pick from (romantic comedy, cartoon, chick flick...) and even then I have problems with it.

The same goes for bands and music.

About a week ago I was asked if I have ever been in love with someone. I said no, but I think that was a lie. I honestly don't know though. I had very strong feeling for a guy, and I honestly still feel for him. Now that I think back on it, I wonder if I was really in love, or if it was just an infatuation or something along those lines.

I grew up in a tiny house (my bedroom was 9x9) and I miss it. My family moved two houses away from it when I was a freshman or sophomore in high school. Both of the houses were always a mess. Now I like things to be nice and clean for the most part; however, I don't go crazy if everything isn't all tidy. In fact, I sometimes let my room get messy cause I get too lazy to clean it.

There will probably be more stuff like this to come. I am kinda in a "self reflection" type of mood.